So I survived my 1st day back at work and couldn’t have asked for a nicer return with lots of hugs from my colleagues & a huge buffet lunch in my honour . It was a very long day as I was up at 6am to feed the kids , dress them , drop Harry at Morning Club for 7.45 and Charley to nursery for 8am, then get to the motorway and drive for 1.30hr to my office in Liverpool.Charley has been poorly for a few days with a cold and very weepy. I took her to the doctors on Monday but got told she just needs rest & sleep.The 1.30hr drive was the perfect amount of time to wind myself up about what an awful mother I was for leaving my poorly child and that I am basically going to burn in Hell.But what are my choices ?
1.Not return to work and struggle on my hubby’s wage ?
2.Call in sick on my 1st day and look very unprofessional ?
3.Return to work and learn the fine art of turning your back on your crying child and walking out the door ?
Option 3 may sound rather harsh but that’s what I had to do yesterday.Turn my back,walk out the door quickly & try to stop the tears rolling down my perfectly polished face. Last night I arrived home at 7.15 , 20 minutes after Charley had gone to bed so I didn’t even get the chance to kiss her goodnight.This morning she woke up grumpy and didn’t want to be put down but I had to get me & Harry dressed so had to leave her sobbing while I did this. I know this will get better and she will recover from her cold and I will get into the swing of things in the working world again but as i sit on the train travelling today to my posh Manchester office all I want to do is be cuddling my poorly baby and making it all better 😢😢😢